Current mood:

irritated

I'd rather go to hell than be with people like you
it's my fifth semester and I just finally had my first experience with the preachers. of course, when Ri and I politely refused their pamphlets (and she said she was Buddhist), one of them said... "Buddhist, why would you want to go to hell?" and I could not help but shout back as I was walking away, "I'd rather go to hell than be with people like you." which sadly, is pretty frakkin true. if I ever met a deity who told me they were the ultimate power in the universe and required absolute submission to their will and law, I would (attempt to) punch them, and then tell them to fuck off. I was raised that god had given us all the ability to tell right from wrong and to listen to my "still small" voice. so if I've lived a life by that voice, attempting to do what I believe is right, and that's not enough to stay out of hell - then personally, I'd rather be there. such a system would be inherently unfair. if god required complete unthinking submission then why did he a) give us the ability to tell right from wrong and b) give us free will? who exactly would I be able to trust to tell me right from wrong if I cannot trust my own moral compass? it really just breaks my brain.

the whole thing is like waking up one day to discover your parents have left you and your siblings alone in the house. each sibling says he or she has an instruction sheet they dictated from said parents, but since none of the instructions are actually in that parent's handwriting, you have no way to be sure. and of course, each sibling is shouting at the others and calling them a liar. call me crazy, but I'm the sort of kid who would just do my chores and generally be good in the hopes that even if I got it wrong, my parents wouldn't call me an idiot for letting myself be led around in the first place.

I say we just take all the hateful/extremist people in the world and dump them all in a compound in Antartica and let them fight it out there. because really, why should we have to suffer for their problems? they started this bullshit. let them figure it out somewhere where they can't infringe on the rest of us.