Maya Preisler ([info]girlwithagun) wrote,
@ 2007-08-18 06:49:00
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Current mood: frustrated
Current music:30 Seconds to Mars - A Beautiful Lie

meta what?
sometimes I find it incredibly frustrating to live in a world where I can't solve my problems at sword point. I know, that sounds rather asinine coming from someone who makes anti-war propaganda art. I never said I made sense. I just feel rather... confined. it's all very well and good to sign petitions, vote, make art, and generally attempt to effect social humanitarian change, but a very large part of me irrationally feels violence would be more effective.

I feel caught on the edge of something, trapped inexorably inside of some unseen half-cocoon; an egg cracked but unbroken. I feel like I've been kicking at the walls for far too long now. it scares me a little and frustrates me quite a lot. I just want to understand even a little of it.

practically speaking - I'm sure a large portion of this is directly related to school. I recognize the synchronicity of being in the right place to learn from people such as Mary Tuma (who is being hailed internationally as a leading expert in the very form of cutting edge art I wish to make) and Heather. I know Malena and Frances are incredibly important to my life. Mike and Shea were influential. Even Mori-sensei and Shoji-sensei continue to be people I am meant to interact with. but... and that should be BUT... UNCC drives me batshit insane. I hate the constant beaurocracy even within my own department. I hate the industrial district that surrounds it. I hate searching for frakking housing convenient to it. intellectually I recognize that all worthy things require struggle, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.


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[info]rocketlad
2007-08-18 01:21 pm UTC (link)
but a very large part of me irrationally feels violence would be more effective.

That's actually not all that irrational - IMHO, it's completely rational. The only real reason the civil rights movements effected real social change nonviolently is the fact that had the nonviolence not worked, those in power feared the populace would become violent, so they gave in before that happened.

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[info]girlwithagun
2007-08-19 09:59 pm UTC (link)
well, it seems irrational when I consider the magnitude of violence it would take to bring change to so many places; the sheer number of people I would have to kill is ridiculous.

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why democracy works
[info]kalamadea
2007-08-20 05:10 am UTC (link)
I that that Heinlein once ascribed Democracy's functionality due to... "A person dangerous to the current system who wants to affect change will run for office in nice small position where they have a chance. They will spend a lot of effort and time in this pursuit. If they lose they will feel that the will of the people wasn't behind them and go back to their lives content they have done their civic duty. If they win they will find themselves within the beaurocracy that composes any government system and will find that making changes would take massive effort and many years... years that they could likely spend getting into a position to make more and 'better' change. Most will do a good job of keeping things running as well as they currently are and then begin the campaigning cycle yet again, thus ensuring that no dangerous change happens.

while I'm not sure of my source,the concept is solid. A democracy is a system designed to be never changed unless there is a more than desperate need. Needless to say this makes many people believe that looking outside the normal lines to find change would be preferable. Fortunately for our peace day to day most believe that it would be wrong to go outside the system, when the system exists.

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Re: why democracy works
[info]girlwithagun
2007-08-21 08:14 pm UTC (link)
mmm. I can't say I disagree. I think that's a very valid point, and part of my frustration.

the other is non-democratic countries... and sadly, their situations make me at least grateful to be here.

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[info]just_being_jess
2007-08-21 07:47 pm UTC (link)
Intellectually I recognize that all worthy things require struggle, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.

The story of my life.

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[info]girlwithagun
2007-08-21 08:09 pm UTC (link)
*hugs* you and I are too alike sometimes.

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